♥

Sights and sounds from the Heart.

2012-01-24T10:42:00.003+08:00

If you ever leave me, baby, leave some morphin at my door. Cos it will take a whole lot of medication to realise what we used to have, we don't have it anymore.

2012-01-08T21:29:00.002+08:00

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

Pretty much sums up what I feel right now.

2012-01-05T22:42:00.001+08:00

Kusebut namamu disetiap doaku.
Bangkitkan setiap kenangan tentangmu.

Sights and sounds from the Office

2011-12-18T16:16:00.003+08:00

"Its the most wonderful time of the year."

2011-11-12T17:22:00.003+08:00

With you, I'm at ease, I'm calmer, I'm secure.
I feel comforted at the thought that there's you, whenever I need anything - be it a second opinion on what to wear to when I need you to tell me that everything's gonna be alright.

I feel so grateful that God sent you my way and that, even though you're not born Muslim, I find myself wanting to be closer to Him, partly because of you.

At the end of the day, even if this union was not meant to last in the future, I will never forget how you've helped me, how you've become such a significant part of my life, my being.

You're my better half and I've never been happier.
And I'd do all I can to make this work out because I can't see me without you.

Je t'aime.

Sights and sounds from my 23rd

2011-10-31T15:25:00.010+08:00

I turned 23 on the 26/10.

Since Deepavali fell on that date as well, I had the privilege to celebrate it with my H.
Just like every year, he came to my place, armed with cake and a lit up candle ♥
And just like every year, he spoils me with presents (-_-")
Thank you for the all expenses paid day, the beeeeeeeeeauuuutiful Steve Madden and for all the other presents that I'm enjoying as we speak, love.

Mum and Dad got me my first ever train case (I'm still quite obsessed with the idea that I even own one)! They definitely know their daughter.

The brother and girlfriend got me a huge bottle of Lovestruck by Vera Wang. I adore the scent and am in love with its gorgeous tulips and tulled covered cap.
Too pretty for words!

Thank you all for the well wishes, prayers and everything else under the sun!
I'm so blessed.

Sights and sounds from Rain's 23rd

2011-10-25T10:39:00.003+08:00

Rain turned 23 on the 1st of October.

I sincerely hope you liked the presents I chose for you.

I can't imagine life without you harping on/annoying/entertaining me on a daily basis.
Thanks for the joy and colours you bring.

Sights and sounds from the Passing Out Parade

2011-10-18T08:37:00.007+08:00

Can you see the pride and joy in my father's eyes?
My not-so-little brother has finally POP-ed.

Sights and sounds from Rojak Raya '11

2011-09-27T18:22:00.008+08:00

Alhamdulillah, my Syawal this year was a blessed one.

Thank you for the laughter and love.

Star of the day was of course, the most adorable baby in the world, Izyan.
I can't get my hands off him!

Ended the day after the clock struck midnight, with H's boy's at my place, where the first thing on the agenda for him and I was to get out of our raya garb and into comfier clothes.

It doesn't get any better than this.
Thank you, God.

2011-08-24T21:51:00.016+08:00

On the twenty fourth day of the eighth month of the year two thousand eleven, my classmates and I were given all the rights, privileges and distinction to assess the benefits and awards from the title of Bachelor of Business (Marketing).

Singapore Insitute of Management-Royal Melbourne Institute of Technology University, graduands of class of 2011.

Syukur Ya Allah, for this generous opportunity from Him.
Without his guidance, I am lost and most unfortunate.

My utmost gratitude...

...to my parents for being there for me every step of the way, for being my backbone, my voice of reason and piecing me back together when I felt like I was going to fall apart.

...to my H, for being my rock, for answering my late night/early morning frantic phone calls, wiping my tears and bearing with my inconsistent schedules of work, schools, projects and exams. For believing in me during good and bad times, for always knowing what to say and for being by my side this entire ride. I will be there for you, come what may.
You are truly a man in my eyes. My man.

...to Rain, for supporting me, for being there when H couldn't be around, for calming me down when I hyperventilate. For being there when I need you (and for when I don't!).

... to Julie, Wai Leong, Qi Fan, Joseph and my other uni mates, in the words of a recent NTU valedictorian.. "We f**king did it!!* That really, truly sums it up :)

... and finally, to my family and friends, for your prayers, your support, your faith and your love.

*tosses mortarboard in the air*

2011-08-23T16:14:00.004+08:00

Life's been hectic as of late.

Thank God Ramadhan brings us bountiful amounts of peace and serenity.
I don't wanna see it go. Its the one month in the entire year I feel most at peace, most zen, most tranquil.

Insya'Allah, we shall meet again, for many, many more years to come.
Amin.

2011-07-28T13:06:00.002+08:00

MY convocation is on the 24th of August 2011.
At the Grand Hall of my alma mater.

Alhamdulillah, for this generous blessing from Him.
Ever since I took my GCE 'O' Levels results, it has been the greatest dream of mine, to walk into the school hall, in my academic regalia, topped with a mortarboard.

That was my life goal back then, simple and easy; to don a mortarboard.
Except that the road wasn't that simple and easy.
But with the support of my parents, my H and my family and friends, I'll be fulfilling my 16 year old self's life goal on the 24th.

Now, my 22 year old self has set a couple of new life goals:
1) Climb up the corporate ladder
2) Provide comfort and support for my family
3) Get closer to Him

Insya'Allah.

2011-06-24T23:39:00.003+08:00

Someone Like You x Adele

Its amazing how something so small can take up so much space in your heart.
Many congratulations to Idah and Fadzli.

Welcome to the world, Baby I.

2011-06-17T17:01:00.017+08:00

Don't Stop The Party x B.E.P

Love all around.

Including when my newly enlisted brother was struggling to get away from the arms of our sobbing mother in Tekong.

Many, many congratulations to the newlyweds, Mr & Mrs Faiz!
May you be blessed with happiness and love to last 10,000 lifetimes.

2011-06-03T14:54:00.006+08:00

Marry Me x Train

H turned 23 on the 31st of May.

We are blessed, being able to celebrate our birthdays together, starting from our 18th.
God is great.

I, too, got a present that day from him, thanking me for my efforts
But trust me when I say, my efforts were all made worthwhile when I saw the smile on your face and heard your laughter ringing through the air.

2011-04-16T00:56:00.010+08:00

Count On Me x Bruno Mars

Darrich's safely back home in Melbourne now.
We shouldn't be sad 'cos this isn't goodbye, its merely see you later.

2011-04-08T14:31:00.021+08:00

Can You Feel The Love Tonight x Elton John

5th April 2011 will go down as one of the most memorable days in my life.
The Lion King Musical at Marina Bay Sands, Darrich's farewell surprise, Aisha's birthday treat + presents.
Started at 9.30 am, with breakfast in Little India, a short shopping spree at Mustafa, off to Tamp to get ready and fetching of Darrich at AMK.

Thanks guys for everything!

And many, many thanks to Kak Nana and Zahid for helping us get the tickets, without the both of you, all these wouldn't have been possible!!! *hugs*

Photos credits: Raiyan Photographie, girlpink

2011-04-04T12:55:00.013+08:00

Down x Jason Walker

Time spent with H, friends, family, food and fun.
What's not to love?

Photos credits: Raiyan Photographie, Darrich Neo & my spanking new camera

2011-03-05T23:41:00.003+08:00

Animal x Neon Trees

Thank you for the making my year on the 1st of March.

And thank you, for spending time and effort in making me the scrapbook.
Your handiwork is more valuable to me than the most extravagant item that money could buy.

2011-01-01T22:53:00.030+08:00

What's My Name x Rihanna Feat. Drake

Significant moments of 2010:

January - Attained my Class 3 driving licence on the 21st + Commenced semester in RMIT on the 4th.

February - Managed the shop while the managers were on Chinese New Year holidays from the 13th-14th + Co-arranged the Hen's By The Lake for the 3 brides-to-be on the 27th.

March - Celebrated Han and my 4th year together on the 1st + Drove Rifqy, Trisha, Ibu, Babah, Sis and Han to the zoo on the 28th.

April - Bought my Skinieminie on the 3rd + Mad studying days from the 11th to 26th + Sat for Marketing Communications examination paper on the 27th.

May - Sat for Service Quality examination paper on the 4th and Advanced Marketing Concepts and Applications examination paper on the 6th + Witnessed Spurs make it to the Champions League on the 7th + Attempted to make Han happy on his 22nd birthday on the 31st.

June - Woke up to great exam results on the 3rd + Witnessed Lala's wedding on the 6th + Marianah gave birth to Nelly A. on the 29th.

July - Commenced final semester in RMIT on the 5th + Ran the Shape Run on the 25th.

August - Got the biggest blessing to meet Ramadhan for another year on the 11th + Han went for day surgery at KTPH on the 27th.

September - Parents' 23rd wedding anniversary on the 5th + Celebrated Eid and dented the side of another car on the 10th.

October - Diana's + Idah's wedding on the 3rd + Mad studying days from the 18th onwards + Celebrated my 22nd birthday on the 26th + Sat for Global Marketing examination paper on the 29th.

Credits: Hida

November - Sat for Distribution Channels examination paper on the 1st, Strategic Marketing examination paper on the 3rd and Sales Strategy and Communication Skills examination paper on the 4th + Witnessed Spurs win against Arsenal for the first time in 17 years on the 20th + Witnessed Spurs WIN against Inter Milan (!!!!) on the 25th + Azhar's wedding at Furama Hotel on the 28th.

Group stage
Group A

	Teams	P	Pts
1	Tottenham	6	11
2	Internazionale	6	10
3	Twente	6	6
4	Bremen	6	5

December - Woke up to great exam results on the 2nd (Graduated!) + Went to Kuala Lumpur from the 10th to 13th + Met up with Year 1, Sem 1 poly mates on the 26th + Company dinner on the 29th + SAF Family Day at Universal Studios on the 29th + Sealed 2010 with Han by my side and fireworks up top on the 31st.

2010 has been such a giving year, with so many opportunities and possibilities coming my way.

Ya Allah, I thank you for the neverending generous blessings from you, for the people around me. I am humbled.

Insya'allah, 2011 will be another year to look back upon and smile on. Amin.

2010-12-20T23:28:00.002+08:00

Fluorescent Adolescent x Arctic Monkeys

The 4 day trip to KL was awesomeeee.
A well deserved break after a traumatic study + exam session.

Shopped too much.
Had my halal Subway fix and so much good street food, I'm surprised no one got food poisoning.
Went to the KLCC, Sogo and of course the must-go-to places - Petaling Street and Masjid India.

All I can say, from what I've learned on this trip is, never judge a shop by its exterior.
The unbelievable bargains, the unique trinkets, tops, shawls I've got were... very my kinda things :)

I'm wayyyy beyond pacified.

The remaining post-results celebrations are still going for me.

But come 2011, its time to get cracking in taking my first few steps in securing financial stability.

2010, you have been so incredibly giving.
Thank you, Allah.

2010-12-02T08:09:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah.
I've graduated.

I'm a degree holder.

Thank you, God, for this generous blessing from you.
Alhamdulillah.

2010-11-07T13:59:00.002+08:00

One in A Million x Ne-yo

Exams are over.
Feeling good, Insya'allah everything will turn out fine.

Now, somebody take me out cos I need to system restore myself, get my brain and life back.
Its my turn to enjoy after 3 weeks of being cooped up at home, facing notes and books on a daily basis.
Imma let loose :)

And now, we wait.

photo credited to: aksdareflection

2010-10-28T00:49:00.009+08:00

Just The Way You Are x Bruno Mars

I turned 22 on the 26th of October :)

I still feel like a 19 year old, though.

Spent the day with the apple of my eye, the sugar in my coffee, the motivation to my everydays, my Han.
Turned up at my door with a lighted cake, singing the birthday song.
Adorable, much.

And my loot from him.
My favourite has got to be the handmade card =D
From scratch! Amazing what a gold pen and some paper can do *beams like a proud Mum*
Thank you, baby!!!!
Too much, as always.
I chide but you never learn, do you?

Depressing sight of notes + Bag of presents = Slightly happier times

Spent the day trying NOT to think about the finals lurking around the corner.
But to no avail.
I'll stop thinking, when its over.

Thank you Babah, for settling my *ehem ehem*.
Thank you Ibu, for the military jacket.
Thank you little brother, for the perfume.
Thank you little sis, for the gorgeous black Grecian dress.
Thank you, friends, cousins for the well wishes through text, Twitter and all =D

My 22 years on earth is more meaningful, because of all of you.

2010-10-21T14:31:00.002+08:00

Oh exams, you're doing my head in.
Final stretch, Insya-Allah.

Let's finish off with a big bang.

2010-10-08T11:01:00.004+08:00

Like a G6 X Far East Movement

Recap Raya

Eid 2010, was definitely different... I guess I share some of my friends' sentiments.

Albeit being different, I treasure certain traditions and must-dos that my family keeps alive,my confirmed-late-no-matter-how-early-I start getting ready + Dad's nagging-at-why-its-taking-me-so-long, the seeking forgiveness in the morning and my trying not to tear up cos I dun have waterproof mascara during the fore mentioned session, just to name a few.

So, I drove this year, a manual car... and guess who hit another person's car?
Me.
Not major but still left me a tad bit traumatic, not even wanting to come near the steering wheel despite Mum's effort of trying to talk me into doing it so I won't grow phobic of driving, I suppose.

Nonetheless, I did take the wheel again... drove my 2 Umis and 1 Ami, my Cik Man, my Kak Nana, my Auntie Mama and my little cousin Afiq.
It was quite an adventure, trying to tail Dad's car in front, getting lost, not being able to get into the right lane and making a huge U-Turn, my Umi saying one thing and Kak Nana giving the direct opposite direction...
It was extremely, extremely fun though, what with the non-stop cracking of jokes and teasing.
Oh right, I realized I can't drive in my heels hence, brought my flip flops then grew lazy to keep changing from flip flops to heels and went visiting in baju kebaya/kurung and flip flops.
You've should seen/heard Mum's incessant nagging.
Epic.

But I guess, all these experiences will help nurture me into a more alert and vigilant driver.

Also, a major difference in this year Eid's has got to be the fraternal grandparents' new place.
Imagine having celebrate every Eid at their previous house every year since I was born, going into Nenek's bedroom to lepak on the bed cos that's where my favourite cousins will be, eating Atok's red spiced chicken wings right out of the pan while sitting on the thick carpeted floor... and now, we don't lepak in Nenek's new room, on her bed BUT at least we still get Atok's power packed chickens :)

May their new abode bring them lots of rest, peace and lightheartedness in their golden years.
Ya Allah, bless my grandparents with your peace and serenity.
Amin.

What didn't change, was the throngs of Babah's granduncle/aunts, cousins with spouses + kids, 2nd cousins with spouses + kids and the entire Syed Noh kampung + Nenek's side.
Neverending, I tell you.
And that wasn't even all of them.
Ibu's side though, the direct opposite, cosy and small, and came at one shot, stayed for 5-6 hours at my place.

So, that's a bit of my Eid 2010 recap.
Probably my final year getting the $ka-ching$.
Next year, if God Willing, I'll get a job with financial stability + opportunities for career advancement and be the one handing them out instead.
Insya-Allah.

May we all get to meet again with Ramadhan next year, Insya-Allah.
A very, very belated Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri and Maaf Zahir & Batin to the wonderful, amazing people in my life.

2010-09-14T11:42:00.003+08:00

The Kill (Acoustic) x 30 Seconds to Mars

Happy Operationally Ready Date, H.

In a sea of identical Sea Soldiers, you still stand out in my eyes.

What a man you've become, after these 2 years.
I thank you for braving this phase with me.

I'm so proud of you.

2010-08-27T13:07:00.003+08:00

Be In That Number x 100,000,000 Tottenham Hotspur Fans

Gareth Bale, you unstoppable, stunning wizard of English football, you.

I'm gonna buy me a Tottenham jersey and slap a big, fat Champions League logo on it.
Wembley, here we come!!!

2010-08-26T12:11:00.001+08:00

♡19 days to Operationally Ready Date.

2010-07-25T12:48:00.001+08:00

Dirty Picture x Taio Cruz Feat. Ke$ha

Completed my first ever marathon with Naz, this morning!
It'll be awhile before I sign up for the next one, though (I think).

We're feeling rejuvenated and accomplished!!
Proud of us, Naz!!

2010-07-20T21:32:00.002+08:00

Bad Romance x Lady Gaga

New semester started early this month.
Final semester, that is.

I wanna make this lap the best one yet.
Better than the previous ones.
I wanna do Han proud.
I wanna do my parents proud.
I wanna do me proud.

Its now or never, I know that now... and nothing's gonna stand in my way.

2010-06-23T13:23:00.002+08:00

Need You Now x Lady Antebellum

I thank God for the day my mum practically dragged me out of bed and hauled me over to SSDC to apply for my driving licence.
I thank God for that very same day where Dad talked me into taking a Class 3 and not a Class 3A course.
I thank God for the day I finally held my licence in my hand.

Why?
Cause I just realised today, that most of the jobs I'm interested in, has one requirement in common.
"Class 3 Driving Licence".

I thank God for the foundation that my parents have provided me with.
And of course, I can never thank them enough.
Half a year more to go and if God's willing, I'll be prepped with my degree and jump headfirst into being a working class heroine.

Now, who wants to hire me?
Please?

2010-06-09T23:53:00.004+08:00

Rockstar 101 x Rihanna Feat. Slash

In this photo...
Fahmy - Fuh! Is it me or is it really warm here??
Han - Quit shoving, guys! I'm falling off!
Rain - I'm gonna steal Lan's shiny tanjak...
Me & Linda - We're watching you, Rain. Don't you even think about it.
Lala - Ok Tina, here's the scoop... We're going to Bishan after this.
Di - Hello? Yes, yes... call you later. I'm posing for a photo here.
Fadzli - Aaaah, Best Man finally dapat duduk...

To the newlyweds, Mr. & Mrs. Mazlan, many, many congratulations!
Lala, you were as stunning as a new bride could ever be.
I love you, babe *hugs*

Now, make me a mini Lan/Lala!

2010-05-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

Endless Love x Lionel Richie & Diana Ross

5th birthday spent together, each more memorable than the last.
Enjoy the company of your camp mates around you right now, for I'm glad that you're not alone :)
May this new age bring you many, many opportunities, happiness, health and wealth.

I wouldn't be who I am today without you, so on the very day that you were born, 22 years ago, I celebrate you.

Happy birthday to you, the apple of my eye.

2010-05-11T00:49:00.001+08:00

While I continue to rant on about H, I've pretty much lost the will to blog.
I'm *this*close to being the fiercely private person I really wanna be.

But I can't shut it down cos someone'll say "You're taking away my homepage??"
Sighhhhh.

2010-05-11T00:28:00.001+08:00

To my Han, may you never steal, lie or cheat.
But if you must steal, steal my sorrows away.
If you must lie, lie with me.
And if you must cheat, cheat death, because I can't live a day without you.

2010-04-17T14:14:00.009+08:00

Set the Fire to the Third Bar x Snow Patrol Feat. Martha Wainwright

I love how you love them.
How you take time to explain to them about stuff I can't seem to explain,
have the patience to try and understand their gibberish baby talk,
give them little kisses as you carry them in your arms, sit them on your lap and wipe away their snot and grime.

I love how you love them.

2010-03-22T23:30:00.003+08:00

Drops of Jupiter x Train

I cherish these letters you wrote to me.
Not only because of the words.
Not only because, even though you pen down those thoughts,
you tell me that words alone can never describe enough.
But because I know that you were the last person who touched these pages,
who married ink to paper - and chose to send them my way.

Keep them coming, please...

2010-03-01T00:44:00.002+08:00

Today, we welcome the 4th year since you and me, became us.
We both realise how much we've went through, all the good and the bad, together.
But even if our road is an uncertain and treacherous one, I'd stick with you than find another.
No words, in any form of language, has enough meaning to explain what you mean to me, hence, I promise to show it to you, through my every gesture, through every moment we have.

I believe in you, in us.

2010-02-17T12:45:00.002+08:00

Baby x Justin Bieber Feat. Ludacris

Counting down to the days to the Hens' party.
It's time like this that I feel like I need a walkie talkie, better yet a headset.

2010-01-25T12:19:00.005+08:00

Linger x The Cranberries

I've got an engagement, a hens' party and a wedding to plan, respectively.

None of which is mine :D

I love planning and executing...
and while I blame my "Everything-Needs-To-Be-Perfect" obsession on my mild OCD traits, I'm not apologizing for it.
Heh.
You only (hopefully) get hitched once in your lifetime!!

My room is a mess of tulle, flower garlands and bobby pins.
Crunch time, all you brides-to-be.

2010-01-09T21:31:00.002+08:00

Ever, Ever After x Carrie Underwood

So far, we are so close.
I don't know what it was that I did right, but I should really count my blessings.

2010-01-02T12:39:00.006+08:00

Tik Tok x Ke$ha

Some things I overhead at Marina Bay's bayfront.

- Guy : Eh, don't want ah! You smell my armpit!

- Malay Girl: *singing* I've gotta feeling... aku macam nak terkencing... aku macam nak terkencing...

- Friend of Malay Girl: *grumbling* Apa sia... Macam macam cabaran nak gi Butter Factory...

- Young one at approx. 2358 pm: One!... One!... Eh, mane siul bunga api!?

So many colourful characters, so many kids way past their bedtimes.
It was fantastic, though, spending it with someone near and dear to me, wouldn't want it any other way.

2010, I'm soooo ready for you.

2009-12-26T21:09:00.003+08:00

Starstrukk x 3OH!3 Feat. Katy Perry

Been working my butt off, weekends burnt, social life depleting and the man in my life bearing the brunt of my complaints.

Next month's paycheck better be (and Insyallah, will be) the shizz, I tell ya.

As for now, I'm gonna work my heart and soul away, dealing with grumpy adults and their children, right before school starts.
You keep throwing that temper and bossiness about and your daughter will grow up doing the same to you, you old hag.
Don't say I didn't warn you.

But, ah yes, the unexplainable feeling that I get from the smiles of appreciative guests and hugs from little toddlers who are toooooo cute for words, keeps me sane and rooted to this part-time job of mine.

Gonna plan New Year's Eve and New Year's properly this year, no excuses.
With H and friends, or whoever, we'll see what we'll come up with.

And Rainnnnnnnnn, I smell a shopping spree right around the corner.
Let's go!!

May 2010 bring us all many opportunities and the ability to steer ourselves smoothly out the obstacles ahead.
Amin.

p.s. Fulham vs Spurs "Oh when the Spurs, comes marching in..." Everybody, now!

2009-12-07T18:48:00.003+08:00

Abusadora x Wisin & Yandel

Oh, 4 floors of Forever 21 at 313 @ Somerset, please open your heavenly doors so I could stroke the materials of your gorgeous pieces of perfection, run my fingers through your little trinkets and buy me some bad-ass, seamless, super dark blue jeans.

2009-12-05T10:37:00.002+08:00

I Can Transform You x Chris Brown Feat. Lil Wayne

*cue choir of angelic voices*

...., for now.
Clearing this semester's 4 modules is such a relief beyond belief.
I can now focus on how we're gonna celebrate the coming of 2010, with zilch worries, till semester starts again on the 4th of January.

Final 2 semesters, to that much needed piece of paper, called a degree.
Sigh, the demanding cycle that is the Singapore education system.

Well, Mum has always said time and again, you wanna start something, you give it your all and end it well.
So, here's to hardcore enjoying and doing mindless things, till the cycle starts again! *toasts my cup of iced Milo*

2009-11-14T00:06:00.030+08:00

I Will Be x Avril Lavigne

Exams are finally over and I can finally breathe - and clear up this relatively dusty, empty space.
Many things happened over the past few weeks but heck, I'm highlighting the more significant ones in this humble (albeit dying) blog of mine.

First thing on the agenda :
My parents threw me a surprise 21st bbq!
I should've known -_-
Mum's been bugging and bugging me excessively about throwing a bash, but I've been adamant about it.
I just don't feel like throwing one.
So heck, she threw one for me!

17th October '09, Saturday.
Changi Beach.

Thank you, ibu and babah, I'm so blessed to have such loving and supportive parents.

To my cuzzies, I sooooo love my 21 presents from all of you! There's actually 22, I counted!!
To my best buds, Rain and my gorgeous girlie girl, Linda, thank you for coming, I love you guys :)
To Putra Rifqy Luelza and Putri Cinta Zatrisha, you babies are my (and Han's) number one weaknesses. Please don't grow up too quickly.
To my grandfolks from both sides, thank you for the ka-ching, moga dimurahkan rezeki dan dikurniakan kesihatan selalu.

To my siblings, aunts, uncles, cousin-in-laws, cousins, Babah's WO friends and those who came, thank you so much, for everything.

Next on my list:
Even though H couldn't make it for the party (due to the bane of my existence called NS), he more than made up for it by treating me like a queen on the day I turned 21.

26th October '09, Monday.
Out and about Singapore.

Thank you baby, for the gorgeous hand drawn card, 9 stalk blooms, the birthday cookie, the nail spa voucher and the agnès b. wallet.
And for being such a sweetheart since the day we were classmates till today.
In us, we trust.

And, the third and ending note to this entry:
10th to 11th November '09, Tuesday to Wednesday.
Slumber Party @Bencoolen

It was our way of letting off steam, kicking it together in our most comfortable clothes, with no make-up and stuffing our faces with the likes of Pringles, hot dog buns, double cheeseburgers, potato chips, Sinalco and Sarsaparillas.
We had goodie bags for each of us - filled with pretty lip glosses, soaps, nail buffers and all things girly.

But of course, not before we plastered our faces with make-up, courtesy of D and curls, courtesy of... me!
Well, curls for the rest and straightened hair for me, since we decided to switch up.

Please endure our vainpot poses and such.
We're girls, its what we do.

Thank you babes, for making our slumber party a night to remember.
We totally deserved it after what the exams put us through.
Pfft.
More to come.
And I'm still stroking the birthday present you ladies got me, its preeettttttttttyyyyyyyy :)

Besides the above 3, the highlights of the few months back included the Style magazine invite-only fashion show and "The Hills" outing with Rain, Rain's "Geek in the Blue" 21st party, movie dates with H and a couple more I can't remember.

As hectic as this end of year will be, I wouldn't want it any other way.
I'm loving life!
Alhamdullilah.

2009-10-31T00:11:00.002+08:00

Sexy Chick x David Guetta Feat. Akon

I'm frazzled, a bit zoned out, in need of coffee.
I better not get addicted to that stuff, I tell you.

And while you all party like Rock Stars tomorrow at the different Halloween shindigs, I'll be sleeping for a few hours before getting back up and studying again 3 more times this week.

It'll all be over (for this semester, at least) come next, next Monday, the 9th of November.
Insyallah, I'll be feeling gratified.

My head's swimming and I have a thousand and one formulas + theories to memorize.
The joy of exams.
Yay-freaking-ness.

p.s. Thank you, Han, for making the day I turn 21, pure, pure bliss.
I think you're magic :)

2009-10-14T00:47:00.017+08:00

Broken Hearted Girl x Beyonce

Aidilfitri came and went, well, for those of us who are finally done with visiting, of course.
According to Naz, it officially ends on the 20th of October.

I think it goes without saying that the days that I look forward most to during this entire holy month would be the first day of Syawal and the day my clique and I hit the roads to head to each others' houses.
In our best baju kurung and few inch heels, no less :)

Sheer, good fun!

The ladies and gents at my place.

Heading up and into Tina's home.

Tina's Dad: Awak suker tengok bola?
Han: *blank*
Tina: Dia Cina lah, ayah!
Tina's Dad: *did a double take and peered at Han's face* You like soccer?

Idah's house, where we shifted most of the furniture around.

It felt to me like she was going to shift out!
Love the shots taken here :)

Waiting for the gents to finish their ciggs before heading up and into Di's place.
I had me some good ol' kacang phool - sunny side up egg, onions, green chilli and lime included.
The works!

And a photo of the double date gang.
Tina, can you say f-r-e-n-c-h f-r-i-e-s and 1-9-1-B?

At Linda's place where I think everyone went a little berserk after one too many glasses of sugary drinks.
We just had to attempt a couples' "10-shot" (shutter shots), but as seen above, we failed miserably.
The fun more than made up for it, though :)

With the convoy of 4 cars, we headed east to north to west...
I wouldn't change anything about that day, mishaps and all.
We ended on an exhausting, but high note, watching a couple of cars get $70 summon coupons slapped onto their windscreen, at Rain's place, slightly after midnight.
Its an understatement to say that I love my friends.

Next year, we'll have one more married couple added to our gang :)
Alhamdullilah.

Looking forward to planning and executing the Hen Night party!

2009-09-28T20:46:00.016+08:00

Brighter than Sunshine x Aqualung

Of the parents' 22nd wedding anniversary.

Of Iftar with Han.

Of Iftar with Dila, Julie and Naz.

Of 500 ketupats and Syawal.

And of a random visit to a nenek who couldn't be happier.

2009-09-05T16:24:00.001+08:00

" I have the tendency to do that; to blow things up to be bigger than they are. I look at the negatives, instead of the positives. And, I certainly don’t think anything through with logic. But, somehow you put up with that, and that amazes me on a daily basis. That even though I’m a nervous wreck half the time, you’re still here. "

via eletheowl.

someone brilliant just put in words another part of you that i'm eternally thankful for.

2009-08-26T22:03:00.006+08:00

Meet Me Halfway x The Black Eyed Peas

With the month of Ramadhan amongst us, comes unexplainable, intolerable cravings, for me at least.
What I wouldn't do for a thick, ghee laden Roti Bomb.

This photo?
I'm craving for every single thing (and person) in it.
I want, I need.
In clockwise order: Han, Paper Prata, Butter Prata, Egg prata and ROTI BOMB, YO.

And on a totally random ending note...YOU, Spurs, how I wish that the league season is over now, with you at the top of the table.

If only it was... I'd print it out and hang it on my wall :)

2009-08-18T16:22:00.011+08:00

Don't Trust Me x 3OH!3

NDP '09 with El, had me some good ol' neighbourly company :)
Literally.
Nothing like screaming like a bunch of teenyboppers and calling out Rain's name (like as if he could hear us from way over the floating stage), Kallang waves and singing national songs.

And you, I love more than yesterday and lesser than tomorrow.
Thank you, for everything.
More to come.

2009-08-05T22:32:00.001+08:00

I believe that I kinda have this little blooming feeling for you.
It’s just that - you’re you.
You’re nice.
You’re what I’ve always wanted in a guy.

Do you think you’ll ever have feelings for me?

Gosh, is it me? Or is Jiaxuan leading onto something?

Or maybe it’s just me… Gosh girl.

Our train came at the exact same time… How perfect is that?

I played this little mind game before you stepped foot into the train…

I was chanting to myself over and over and over again…

“If he likes you, he’ll turn…If he likes you, he’ll turn… C’mon turn!”

I was looking at you through the reflection on the glass panels… and

You turned. Needless to say, my heart soared.

I know its dumb la… But I can’t help it…

15 December 2005

Something I found, stowed away in a little folder on my laptop.
A little excerpt from the story of you and me.

2009-08-01T23:36:00.002+08:00

Blogger's being a bitch.
As a certain someone would've said it with much exaggeration "Laaaast warning."

Indeed, it is.

2009-07-19T01:12:00.010+08:00

Never Say Never x The Fray

Past few days had proven to be eventful.
And with the minor drama adding a little bit of spice to everyone's life, soap opera scenes suddenly doesn't seem to be so far fetched and ludicrous after all.

Thank God for the company I had throughout those dreadful days.
I wouldn't have survived it, any other way.

Own Time Own Target was spectacular, fantastic, hilarious, a must-watch.
We were a couple of high-on-laughter folks after the play ended.
The most well-spent $92.40 of the year!

4 hour long break was filled with lunch and The Haunting in Connecticut with W.L, Q.F, D and J at West Mall.
Not as scary as we'd thought it'll be, but bad enough to cause us to jump in our seats.
The boys' constant chanting of "Orh, scary part coming! Scary part coming!", did not help.
At all.

And of course, our beloved D turned 23 years young last month.
J and I almost died of walking looking for the perfect gift... but we did it!
Thank you, Sephora, for providing us with to-lust-for sweet smelling scents and make-up thingamabobs.

Glad you loved it, D.

We love you!

On a totally random note, if there was one thing that I learned during these past few days was that, responsibility is not something you take lightly... or rather, are born with, in certain areas, during certain times.
Sometimes, its just thrown at you and when that happens, there's nothing you can do about it.
Swallow it up, take it in your stride, whatever.
I've always told myself - Do to others what you want others to do unto you.
Despite all the crap, I'm glad they came, for they taught me a really valuable lesson.
It may not be easy, not everyone would want to do it, but I vow and I swear I'll never let anything happen to my parents, my siblings or my own family, if I were to be granted one in the near/distant future.
I know where I came from, my parents raised me well and I'm never gonna forsake them.

2009-07-10T11:51:00.003+08:00

Six Candles x FM Static

Here's to many, many, many more years of laughter, sharing, love and friendship ahead.
And Lala, you're so coming for the next one!

2009-07-05T23:54:00.003+08:00

Sway x The Perishers

Gawd..I swear I've been wanting to check this out and when I finally did, I realised that it was over.
Today.
I really, really wanted to go... imagine... all the Transformers they'd have that I could I get and all the Star Wars stuff, for Han.
Urgh... I'm so pissed with myself right now.

IF they did carry Polly Pockets (but I'm 98.3425% sure they didn't), I will never forgive myself for missing the carnival.
On the other hand, to those who know where I can still find Polly Pockets (the small ones that can actually fit into your pockets, NOT the big-ass ones they carry now), please let me know.
Been on the hunt since forever.
Sigh.

editted: ARGH. Saw pictures of Storm Troopers and other characters parading around the grounds. Stupidstupidstupid.

2009-06-28T00:02:00.002+08:00

Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough x Michael Jackson

Overheard at work today:

Girl: OH MY GOD, MUM! This is cute too...
Mum: Stop it, Jean! I've already spent over a hundred bucks on all this stuff that you DON'T need! Michael Jackson just died yesterday and I'm still in mourning mode. Okay!?

RIP MJ, have fun in that big dance floor in the skies.
There'll never be another like you.

2009-06-18T00:58:00.002+08:00

Dead Wrong x The Fray

Must.Work.Hard.Don't.Be.Complacent.Keep.Aiming.For.More.Distinctions.

I know I can do this... with the people around me, affecting me the way they do, making me feel like I can do anything..

I will make it through.
The worst is over, its time to keep on moving.

2009-06-04T16:22:00.002+08:00

All Over You x The Spill Canvas

"I'm proud of you. I'll always be."

Trust you to know what to say, when I'm at my lowest point.
Like they say, there's a first time for everything.

But this setback, this obstacle, will be a first and THE last.
Never again.

And right here, right now and for evermore, I vow to make it through.
Whatever it takes.

2009-05-31T15:27:00.002+08:00

Knock You Down x Keri Hilson Feat. Kanye West & Ne-yo

How wise art thou, o' adorable nephew?

Yes, he is.
Depressing, huh.

Nonetheless, a very happy 21st birthday to you today, B H Sim.
Both Rifqy and I can't wait to see you ..and climb all over your back, smother your hands with ice cream, slobber and cover every part of your face with a trail of blazing smooches.

Maybe, just maybe, we'll bring Trisha and some more ice cream along.

*Cle = Uncle, without the "Un", because let's just say that, smart as he is, Rifqy's speech ability isn't as well honed as we'd like it to be. We're getting there, though (I think)!

2009-05-27T15:25:00.016+08:00

Shattered x O.A.R

24th May 2009, Sunday.
Pasir Ris Park, Pit Area 1, Pit 12.
Han's Advanced 21st Birthday Mini Surprise.

My heartfelt gratitude to:

Naz and Rain,for the help and suggestions, for answering my frantic phone calls, and for running around Singapore with me.
Ben & Jerry's on me, you can have whatever you likeee.

Jian Lin, for rallying along a few of Han's closest NS mates, many thanks.

Zhe Heng and Vani, for being present despite the HFMD scare that morning.
I knew it meant something for Han to see his long lost BMT mate.

Austen, for the constant updates on the number of Han's secondary school friends who could make it.
And for keeping it from him, until a few hours before he was supposed to know (HAH!)

All in all, to those who came:
Naz, Rain, Aisha, Zhe Heng & Vani, Austen & girlfriend, Cheryl, Chris & girlfriend, Philemon, Jian Lin, Qamarul, Suphian, Tengku, thank you for being present for Han.

And to you, Han.
I hope you liked what your friends and I pulled off for you.
We've celebrated our 18th, 19th and 20th birthdays together, just the 2 of us every year.
I wanted this year to be different.

Come 31st May 2009, the day you turn 21, I pray and hope that all the best be fallen upon you.
May you continue to touch everyone around you, with your shy, awkward but sincere mannerisms.
May you continue to love and live your life to the fullest.
And finally, may you continue to celebrate and look forward to many, many more birthdays, laughter and meaningful moments.

What I feel for you, I can't really describe in words, but I will continue to show them to you, for as long as we both shall live.

2009-05-17T21:52:00.000+08:00

Sugar x Flo Rida Feat. Wynter Gordon

Sunday...

2009-05-08T13:59:00.009+08:00

Unfaithful x Rihanna

The sights and sounds from Marianah's & Fahmy's Wedding.
19th April 2009.

Missing everyone... Wanna go bowling...

Credits : Multiple Multiply sites

2009-05-06T10:49:00.003+08:00

Speechless x The Veronicas

Its finally over.
Funny, how I feel lost, knowing that I've got all this free time on my hands now.
So, please, bring me out.
Anywhere.
Its like, for the past few weeks, its been eat, sleep, study, repeat (with the occasional impromptu breakdowns, no less).

Although, I'd love to say that I feel like I've accomplished something, like how I felt last semester, I'm still thankful that I made it through the sleepless days and nights.
I just want to get through this semester.
Insyallah.

On a final note, its ridiculous how "Party Like A Rockstar" keeps playing on repeat, on my mind, everytime the exams draw to a halt.

I can't party, really... gotta work my ass off for someone's 21st, which is drawing closer by the second.
Crunch time.

2009-04-25T00:31:00.004+08:00

Dear Allah,

Please give me the strength, ability and faith to perform for my upcoming exams.
Without your guidance, I am vulnerable, weak, your humble servant.
Inject some hope and believe in this soul, as, with your guidance, though I am still your humble servant, I am able to shine in the darkest of places, and find love where it is impossible to love.

Insyallah.

And utmost apologies, to those I've temporarily shunned, whilst I brace myself for the upcoming war, between my wits and ability against Commercial Law, Business Statistics, Prices & Markets and Management Accounting & Business.

For the first time in my life, I am terrified beyond doubt.

2009-04-17T21:27:00.004+08:00

Blame It x Jamie Foxx

Dear Marianah,

Many heartfelt congratulations on your upcoming wedding, from me to you.
I hope you truly enjoyed the Hen Night the girls and I threw for you =)
We, sure as hell, enjoyed planning and making it possible (kudos, ladies! *hugs*)
And I know we all know, you're gonna be one of the most beautiful blushing brides ever.
It's gonna be special this Sunday, as we, your friends, watch you, our first girl, sit on the dais, finally, as Mrs. Fahmy.

Congratulations, once more and love you!

Lots of love,
Shikin

p.s Ladies, where's my tiara ah!?

2009-04-06T03:18:00.001+08:00

The recording of your voice in my phone x You
... cos tomorrow, I have a ridiculously early start, to a really long day.
And you're still stuck wayyy over there.

Stay-ins should be limited to 5 days, MAX.
Never 10.
Period.

2009-04-02T20:47:00.003+08:00

Use Somebody x Kings of Leon

For making me feel like I could dance like no one is looking;
Love like I've never had a broken heart;
And live like Heaven's on Earth.

I thank thee.

2009-03-21T11:36:00.010+08:00

White Horse x Taylor Swift

March arrived with a burst of activities.
I was up to my neck trying to struggle through the throng of plans, schedules, school and work.
On a brighter note, my organizer never looked so colourful before.

Also, since the beginning of March, I've been stuffing myself with food, glorious food.
The girls and I had Pastamania, accompanied with receiving the most unexpected thing ever, someone's wedding invite. *gasp*

Needless to say, we could hardly contain our excitement.
And also, we were over the moon for our bride-to-be.

We could hardly keep still... as portrayed by;

Exhibit A...

... and Exhibit B.

Aaanddd... we're all in the midst of planning a certain something for her before she steps into the realm of becoming someone's missus.

Garlic bread bingeing and party planning!

Headed to the I.T Fair the day after, a Saturday, with the unpredictable Mr. Rain.
Just went I thought that I'd have a horrendous time, being squished amongst sweaty bodies and bespectacled geeks, I have to say that I honestly enjoyed myself.
We left the moment we got our load and made our way to town for some good ol' retail therapy and Pastamania (again).

Sunday, was chocked full with love with Mr. Sea Soldier.
We had our virgin meal at Sofra Turkish Restaurant, for lunch.
It was no wonder why Lala highly recommended the place... it was goooood.

And speaking of him, he FINALLY POC-ed yesterday =)
Yay! for (no longer PTE) B H Sim.

And a short update on my two favourite little people.

Rifqy: * While trying to shove Trisha's head onto his lap* Sha! Eeep! (Sleep)

Rifqy, with what he calls a "bearbear".

Aaah, I am so in love with him, sloppy kisses, long hair, bangs and all.

2009-03-10T21:59:00.005+08:00

Whatever It Takes x Lifehouse

Aah, the shitty quality of that of a camera phone =)
Nonetheless, pictures of Cik Maman (ask Rifqy) and Cik Shikin (unglam, yes?) from Putra Rifqy Luelza's 2nd and Putri Cinta Zatrisha's 1st birthday party, Halton Terraces, Changi.

We have yet to find an answer as to why Trisha looks so worried, almost all the time.
There's a constant furrow to her eyebrows... gotta try and make her smile more...

2009-03-03T22:45:00.003+08:00

Video Phone x Beyonce

Tomorrow, my fate will be sealed.
Tomorrow, after 12.15 noon, I'll know if I can get that key, THE key that will open up a new opportunity for me.
Tomorrow, I'd be having panic attacks (but hey, what's new?).

Tonight, I am freaking out... and will continue to freak out till tomorrow.

Gah, I am disturbed.

2009-03-02T15:20:00.007+08:00

Tangled Up In You x Staind

Don't ever ask me if I'm sorry or that I'm here with you...
Baby, you can bet I don't regret the guys I never knew.
Everyday's another first, another chance for me to fall in love with you,
And I do.

You know how they always say; "When you've found The One, you'd know"?
Me, I've been blessed enough to realise that I've not only found The One, I've found The Only.

Happy 3rd Year Anniversary, Han.

Thank you for giving me an opportunity to finally break into my little black dress.
Thank you for the unexpectedly hilarious, laugh-from-start-till-end movie.
Thank you for allowing me to send you off for book in.
Thank you for the dimly lit dinner for 2.
But, thank yous aren't even near enough for all that you've done for me.

Wo hen ai ni!

2009-02-24T01:38:00.002+08:00

A Woman's Worth x Alicia Keys

And for every thousand reasons I can come up with, to explain why I love you, you give me another thousand more...

Oh God, Sunday is like 3242547566898765433213478907654 days away...
May the days move fasterrrrr.

2009-02-16T13:45:00.003+08:00

You Found Me x The Fray

How things change...

2005 - "Clueless & Kental"
Han's Hairstyle No.: 01

5 months later, 2006 - "Just Together"
Han's Hairstyle No.: 02

One Year Later : "1st Year"
Han's Hairstyle No.: 03

31st May '06 : "His 18th"
Han's Hairstyle No.: 04

31st May '08 : "His 20th"
Han's Hairstyle No.: I'm starting to think that the above looks similar to 03 & 04, though slightly thinner.

Fever '08: "The Mother of All Hairstyles"
Hahaha.

Sometime last week: "Back to Square 1"
Nevermind, it'll grow back.

So, how did we celebrate Valentine's Day?

We walked through town rolling our eyes at each other whenever we passed by someone carrying a bouquet of flowers, balloons or a plushie.
Rather, we spent the day enjoying each others' company and watching street performances.
V Day, or rather as we call it, "Happy Overated Consumerist Day", is not our kind of thing, I suppose.
Which I believe is a great thing.
But hey, we have nothing against those celebrating, either.

To each, his or her own =)

I can't wait for this coming weekend!
Chalet!!!

2009-02-04T16:19:00.006+08:00

On Fire x Switchfoot

Almost 10 months into working now and personally, I've never thought that I'd stick around for this long.
I thought the moment Rain went to NS, I'd be gone too.
And so far, he's been serving for almost 5 months, and I've been doing fine on my own the entire time (despite the constant vulgar-filled rantings that he has to bear with from me =D ).

I guess the main reason I'm still around comes down to the simple truth that - I love what I do.
Even if its just on a part-time basis.

I love the kids who run amok about the store, who pick things up and put them back in a totally different place, who suddenly comes up to me and holds my hand, who instead of giving kisses to their own bear, gives kisses to me.

I love the challenge that kiasu Singaporean parents bring on.

I love getting to know tourists from all over the world, I mean, who's heard of a state called Bavaria?
Definitely NOT me... but I've had the pleasure of having a conversation from a lovely lady from there, who was on vacation here.

I love the feeling of knowing that I have regular customers, who come back to look for me, when they drop by.
I love the people who I used to work with/am working with.

And as much as I absolutely detest dealing with messy customers, the immense satisfaction that I get from knowing that that fussy customer left more than happy, overpowers it all.
It makes everything alright at the end of the day.

I don't know if I want to stay around after my degree, switch to a full time job there.
People seem to think its easy working in this environment, but oh boy, are they wrong.
The high expectations from the management level not only in Singapore but in the USA and the many other countries that has franchises, makes the job pretty stressful, at times.
The "behind-the-scenes" things that they don't see, that we slave over to complete and present to them, those are the things that makes this job a challenge.

But ultimately, all it takes, is one smile, one hug, one customer to address you by your name to make the tiredness and dread of doing the job melt away in a matter of seconds.

Welcome to 'Make-A-Toy(Tomorrow Come Back & Collect)'!!

2009-01-25T22:25:00.010+08:00

Seven Years (Acoustic) x Saosin

A short update before I dive headfirst into a jam packed week ahead.
Not really forward to anything, except for Sunday, of course =D

So, basically, life has been pretty much the same, hanging out with my girls and (somewhat) helping Mr. Sea Soldier welcome the upcoming Lunar New Year (shopped, baked etc...).

*Five minutes later*
I pretty much sliced my thumb open a few minutes ago so I'm gonna cut this, initially wordy, entry extra, extra short.

Our version of Speak No Evil, See No Evil, Hear No Evil

Its admirable how D maintains her pose through the shots, even as J and I burst into peals of laughter or strike up conversations with one another...

We mustmustmust set foot in the lecture theater next week, yes?
No more excuses, at least for the next few weeks *winks*

And lastly, to the fortunate many who'll be collecting those Yusof Ishak filled red packets and basking in the presence of those familiar around you, the boy and I would like to wish you a very, very happy and prosperous Lunar New Year.

And, also...
=)

2009-01-21T21:02:00.003+08:00

Tangled Up In You x Staind

I'm going to grow my hair really, really long...
Well, maybe just one palm past my shoulders and I'm hoping that the natural curls...

Will look like hers...

*prays*
I'm signing off here to end this totally pointless (but filled with hope) entry.

2009-01-13T23:57:00.003+08:00

I Wanna Hold Your Hand x The Beatles

Girl : *searches frantically through purse* Got your keys? Earphones? Did you leave anything behind with me?

Boy : Yes, my heart...

And that was how you got me tripping and stumbling.

2009-01-08T22:59:00.003+08:00

Ain't No Other Man x Christina Aguilera

Finally, the new semester commenced today, at 10 am.
Needless to say, much like my classmates, I wasn't ready to switch back to "student mode"... but I guess, I don't have much of a choice, do I?

I ended the first lecture of semester 2 being scared out of my wits.
The module I'm sitting for, Commercial Law, only has a 30%-40% passing percentage across all 7 R/M/I/T universities.
That's all the campuses, worldwide.

And the Aussie lecturer kept repeating that this is not a "Mickey Mouse subject"... meaning not something you take lightly, I suppose...

Argh, crap.
This is not good.
NOT good.

2009-01-01T01:51:00.007+08:00

Save Me x Staind

2008, came and went.
I swear that last year's countdown concert to 2008 is still pretty vivid in my mind.
So, at this point of time, it still feels surreal to me.
2-0-0-9.

2008 has been fruitful, personally.
Spent another year together with family, with friends and with Han.
Graduated with a diploma and am now sitting for a degree.
Watched Han and Rain go through major hairstyle, physical and mental changes and then sat through their POP.
Made new friends through uni and work and saw with my own eyes that most Singaporean customers aren't as bad/kiasu/unreasonable as we're labeled to be.
We're pretty nice people, without having to try too hard.

2008 also brought about many heartaches/heartbreaks.
But I believe and I know, that what doesn't kill me, will make me stronger.
I just know that struggling and fighting through the troubles, problems and mishaps will help mould me into a being who is far stronger and capable than I could ever imagine.
Insyallah =)

So, I spent the last day of the 2008, having an impromptu dinner for 2 at Duke Road's Mad Jack, with Mr. Sea Soldier.

And today, the 1st of January 2009, marks the 34th month of our union...

You're the fire, that warms me when I'm cold.

You're the hand I have to hold as I grow old.
You're the shore when I am lost at sea.
You're the only thing that I like about me.
In this world where nothing else is true.
Here I am, still tangled up in you.

Thank you for spending 2006, 2007 & 2008 with me.
I will always have a weakness for you.

2008-12-25T11:21:00.002+08:00

Goodnight Goodnight x Maroon 5

Been quite a busybee as of late.
A short update:

1) Han's posted to a Sea Soldier vocation, and I've no clue what it's about, but words such as "Frontline" and "If terrorists were to come attack Singapore, they'll see your faces first", doesn't ease my heart very much.

2) Am still working 6 days shift, and Singaporeans go craaaaaaaazyyyy in Build-A-Bear Workshop during X'mas.

3) You know how people have weird habits to kick the worries and stress away? Things like reading, or taking a nap? Well, I found out that mine is Intensive Cleaning and Clearing Up : / I guess, the need to feel in control of something leads to the need of cleaning up for me.

4) And lastly, as of now and forevermore, I shall order only Fish&Chips whenever I dine at Fish & Co. Period. No more being adventurous or taking risks.

Enjoy the day off! =)

2008-12-15T22:57:00.006+08:00

Circus x Britney Spears

The past week and this week were/are going to be eventful.
Have been and will be spending my off days with my a couple of my most favourite people.

Had a big family dinner + 1(the being who Mum claims is my "handbag"), kudos to Dad's bonus.

Took Rifqy to the playground for the last time, cos he's shifting all the way to Yishun (BOO!).

And of course, (as we now know), went to Han's & Rain's Passing Out Ceremony.
Meeting his folk was way, way, wayyyyyyyyy more nerve wrecking than waiting for my exams results.
But all went well (I hope!), and his dad being really, really warm and nice to me really, really helped.
Phew.

Also, cooked Sutchi fillet fish and chips with butter mashed potatoes for Han.
Like, finally.
That totals up the menu to:
1) Beef noodle soup
2) Butter cookies
3) Double choc chip cookies
4) Cake (Don't remember what type, though)
5) Butter fried rice
6) Vege fried rice
7) Ham & eggs with chocolate butter bun...
8) Maggi goreng (LOL)
9) Stir fried vegetables with rice
10) All my hari raya goodies
and sumpah, aku tak ingat lagi...

And of course, the remaining days left were contributed to b/e/a/r building, which is not as fun as it should be because you're tired and cranky, cos you work six days a week.
However, the thought of the money that's gonna make its way into the account at the end of the month, keeps me going, full steam ahead.

Shopping with Rain tomorrow.
And then, with Han the day after.
Can't wait, seriously.

Oh, the joy that is gift vouchers =)
Its like going into shops and coming out with free stuff (which are literally what vouchers are for, anyways).
Come, gimme, gimme moreee!

2008-12-12T01:33:00.003+08:00

Cater To You x Destiny's Child

When the whistle blows
Silence everywhere
And the flag goes up
In the battalion square
Soldiers all around
Never let you down
Cos we are the best
In the SAF

So echo, echo out loud,
Zulu warriors marching in and out (yah!).
So echo, echo out loud,
Zulu warriors never let you down (yah!).

I'm so proud of you
And I could tell your parents were too =)

2008-12-05T13:55:00.003+08:00

Right Now (Na Na Na) x Akon

Results were released wayyyyyyyy earlier than expected.

Imagine waking up to an excited friend on the phone, at 11 am, on your only day off from work and hearing,
"SHIKIN! RESULTS RELEASED ALREADY! GO SEE!".

I was a nervous wreck as I logged onto the school's site.
And the results that greeted me, made me breathe a HUUUUGEEEE sigh of relief and needless to say, I started screaming for my mother who was ecstatic upon knowing I made it through, with results that I'm more than satisfied with.

Alhamdulillah.
Phew.
The first of five burdens are released.

Night soon came and I got ready for the Build-A-Bear Workshop's Annual Dinner.
Needless to say, we all partied like rockstars =D
Images up as soon as I get my paws on 'em.

Thanks to those who believed in me, for the non-stop encouragement and for pushing me to do my best.
I'm eternally grateful.

YAY!

2008-12-01T00:40:00.000+08:00

Lollipop x Three Six Mafia

Finals results are gonna be released this coming Thursday, at 5pm.
Needless to say, I've been having panic attacks for the past 2 weeks.
Non-stop, sudden and uncalled for panic attacks, to be exact.

I AM SO STRESSED/SCARED/PARANOID/WORRIED... and all that bad stuff.

Han's POP-ing 6 days after that.
By then, I'll know my results... so I'm anticipating whether I'll be bawling like a baby or celebrating like a lunatic alongside him.

I'm in a desperate need of a va-ca-tion.

p.s. Happy 33rd. I love only you.

2008-11-27T22:07:00.006+08:00

Wonderwall x Oasis

Finally, finally, finaaaaalllly, the long overdued outing with my beautiful ladies was fulfilled, a few Fridays back.
4 platters of really tender, succulent fish, a hilarious movie after dinner and gal pals just talking, laughing, reminiscing and rejoicing within the cosy circle.

Zann's Norwegian Salmon and Lala's Fish & Chips.

Linda's Grilled Platter for One and my Flamed Platter for One.
Totally delicioso. *smacks lips*

Thank you for the chocolates,Zann, and thank you, ladies, for the laughter, the recalling back of the panic attacks during both FYP and for sharing and laughing over things that only we 4 "Dabus" understand.

Group huddle!

Anndddddddddd, I can't wait for Saturday's events. *does a jig*

2008-11-18T20:04:00.008+08:00

Breakin' Dishes x Rihanna

My weekend was wondeeerrrrrfuuuuuuuulllllllllllllllllllly spent with my two favourite Zulu warriors.
Saturday evening was spent with Rain and my Sunday & Monday was filled with lotsa TLC with my one and only.

So, on Saturday, Rain and I finally went to catch Avenue Q!!

It was awesomeeeeeee.
Funny, brilliant, witty with just the right amount of dirty in it.
We were laughing from the moment it started all the way till the cast and puppets took their curtain call.
We managed to satisfy ourselves with more than 10 pieces of our favourite gourmet chocolates before heading to the Esplanade.
Also, Mr. Rain managed to grab himself an Avenue Q tee, from NUM's limited edition line, with the title of his favourite song from the show; "It Sucks To Be Me".
So, as you can tell, everybody was a winner at the end of the day =D

Sunday came and I happily bounced off bed the moment Mr. Sun made his entrance.
After (another) 2 loooooong and painful weeks, I was contented just sitting next to him in the bus.
Headed to Beach Road for some good ol' Indian dishes and to look for army stuff.

Then, as if we (okay, I) weren't full enough.
The boy wanted to go for the strudels that I raved about while he was in field camp.

Apple and Durian strudels for the both of us.
No other place does strudels like these - flaky, light and oh-so-good.
It just hits every single taste bud in the most spectacular way possible, the filling inside - cool and buttery... (and I can go on and on and on).
And we thought that a "slice" would be small, but boy, were we wrong.
A "slice" was more like a third of the entire strudel loaf.
Totally worth it.

I know you are in dire need of a massage, especially after field camp...
So, the next time we head out, we'll pay dear Ah Wong a visit, yea?
I'm pretty sure he still remembers us, love.

Right.
Alas, we all know that my exams are over and done with.
Hence, I'm kept busy with work and other random stuff.
Just to name a few...

1) Fixing hairdos on the display bears in the store.

2) Taking care of my butterfly.

Back to work tomorrow after 1 day of rest after 7 straight days of non-stop working.
Thank God I adore what I do.

p.s. To my three favourite ladies, I can't wait to finally meet up this Friday!

2008-11-11T22:58:00.006+08:00

Please Don't Stop The Rain x James Morrison

With the finals over, it spells f-r-e-e-d-o-m for my girls and me =D
So, off we went to get a dosage of good old retail therapy.
Got us some shoes, perfumes and all that good stuff... and we ended the day with a couple of drinks, with our bottoms secured on extremely plush seats.
It was THE bomb.

Again, again!

And, YOU....

Pleasecomehomequickiknowyouhatefieldcampandidotoosopleasepleasecomehomequick
andsitherenexttome=(

2008-11-04T17:02:00.006+08:00

Don't Look Away x Joshua Radin

Taken on the second day of the eleventh month of year two thousand and eight.

'Twas the last day that I met my soldier boy before he goes off for field camp = 2 weeks confinement starting from this week = lots of live/dummy grenade throws = 6 days of killing imaginary enemies in the forest.

Amidst the major cramming for the Macroeconomics paper (which took place today and was KILLER. argh) and preparing for 2 weeks confinement in camp(again) we both managed to squeezed some time to play a little bit of soccer with the not-so-little-but-now-doubly-adorable Rifqy, before the 3 of us proceeded down to send Han onto the bus and on his way to gather with his fellow comrades-in-arms.

Sigh.

On a much, much brighter note, the papers for both Marketing Principals and Macroeconomics are over and done with... but everyone knows the real war begins on Monday.
Accounts paper.
Urgh, the evil that is Maths, how I despise you.

edit/
i love the fact that you still write me letters... and seal and send 'em in envelopes.
and, i think its incredible, that someone i find so unforgettable, thinks that i'm unforgettable too.
i can't wait to see you.

2008-11-02T16:06:00.000+08:00

Finals.
One paper down, two more to go.

Can't wait for it to be over.

2008-10-28T23:16:00.011+08:00

You Make It Real x James Morrison

Two BIG candles on the birthday cake symbolized a new coming of age for me.
When the clock struck midnight on the 26th of October '08, I turned...

20!
(*insert "in-denial" face here*)

The boy and I went out early in the morning, to celebrate what he called "The Biggest Event of The Year" *rolls eyes*
We strolled through town to head for the birthday lunch at Carousel.
For $60++ per person, we indulged in lobsters, scallops, crème brûlée, tiramisu, white/dark chocolate mousse with macaroons... and so muchhh mooore *pats bloated tummy*

And during the course of our meal, he handed each of my gifts, starting with the handwritten letter, followed by the rest of the wrapped packages, one at a time.

Sweet, yes? *beams*

What made this year's birthday extra special was that I got me 2 birthday cakes!

The first cake was a surprise from Ms. Tina, a day before my birthday, the day the poly peeps and 3 cars ventured out for the grand-finale-visiting trip of Aidilfitri '08.
Thanks, you guys... Really sweeeeeeeeeet =)

And the other cake, was really significant to me.
Something that I'll remember for years to come.
Han, apparently, was roped in for the surprise that my family planned.
When I saw him coming out from the kitchen, into the darkened (BLACKOUT, MY FOOT!) living room, with my family and friends belting out the birthday song (with Rain echoing the last 2 words to each sentence, loudly), I burst into tears.
Hahaha *blissful sigh*

So, with birthdays...
COME PRESENTS!

Thank you love, for the gourmet chocolates,Lava lamp (not in picture), Baby Blues Treasury (my favourite comic!), the 'You Are So Beautiful' wind up gadget, Swarovski earrings and vintage tee.
Thank you, Tina & Yat, Lan & Lala, Diana & Zaid, Rain, Asri, Hida and Marianah for the laughter, the pictures, the memories and the singing of birthday songs x 2 and the birthday cake!
Thank you friends and family for the special birthday text messages, calls and tags.
Thank you, little sister, for the Wish perfume.
Thank you, little brother, for the Sembonia wallet.
And thank you, to my ever loving parents, for the Guess handbag, for the efforts, for the support in everything I do and for accepting my choices in life and love.

The love I feel for all of you and from all of you, is beyond measuring =)

How did we end my first day of being a 20 year old?

We spent some quality time with two of our favourite little people =D
Seeing Rifqy warm up to Han, Trisha looking up to him from his arms and the pure bliss on Han's face, was the best gift of them all.
Something warm for me to hold onto, for a long,long time.

Alas, that was my 20th =)
I guess I've gotta learn to embrace this new age and finally let go of the "I'm Forever 19" mantra.

So what if my age for the next 10 years will begin with the digit "2"?
For, right now, with my loved ones around me, I'm loving it!

2008-10-23T13:42:00.004+08:00

Break Even x The Script

The past 2 weeks have been pretty fulfilling.
Despite the stress and tension from school, what with the finals around the corner, we managed to take a break and indulge in a little retail therapy...
To town for dresses, wedges and cute, plaid printed tanks.
To Bugis for gladiator sandals and maxi dresses.

(Fulfilled our last shopping trip before we mug hard and smart for our finals, which will be over in the next 2 weeks *crosses fingers*)
[Note: Girl with bangs - NOT Classmate]

And due to the exams, I took a 2 week study break from work and I MISS EVERYONEEEEEEE!

(One of the photos the BearBuilders took for the BABW International Magazine.)

On a final note...
...the 25th is almost here!
The long awaited jalan raya (yes, late, we know) trip with the poly mates is just 2 days away =)
Can't wait to meet up... and let's just hope there won't be any major hiccups along the way.
Insyallah.

And as much as I'm starting to hate the a/r/m/y, Han's booking out tooommmmooorrrooow =D
I can't wait for the weekend!

Now, back to more studying... *insert depressed face here*

2008-10-20T19:48:00.002+08:00

When I Look To The Sky x Train

Gotta stop taking things for granted.
Gotta appreciate what's mine right now.
Gotta realise that he's really giving more than me in this thing.

Because it seems that everyone around me sees the significance and beauty in this relationship.
And because, a friend said to me, "He's a keeper."
And because, trust me when I say this, because I know I don't want life without him.

2008-10-14T20:21:00.003+08:00

Magic x Robin Thicke

Exams riggght around the bend...
And out of the 3 modules I'm taking this semester, I'm only confident of my Marketing Principles and Macroeconomics. Accounting? Not so.

Problem is, when sitting through accounting lectures, I actually fully understand what's going on... but when I do my revision back home, I can't seem to grasp the concept... I don't know what went wrong.

But I'm sure I'll do well enough to not have to repeat this semester's modules...
Right?

Insyallah.

p.s Thanks, love. For being the sweetest angel in the world... made me smile like a fool, all alone in the bus =)

2008-10-07T00:09:00.002+08:00

Love Song x The Cure

Need you here to twirl a lock of my hair aimlessly as we walk, talk or sit.
Need you here to give me that very same smile, first thing every time you see me.
Need you here to pinch my nose when you think I'm not listening to you when you're talking.
Need you here to give me that grin each time we end up wearing our Everlasts together, unplanned.

I just... simply need you here.

Sigh...

2008-10-01T10:16:00.003+08:00

Dendang Perantau x P. Ramlee

Salam Idulfitri to all my Muslim mates!
May the good that we've done during the month of Ramadhan bring us fruitful rewards.

For all the past, present and possibly future mistakes that I have committed/ might commit, unknowingly or on purpose, I seek forgiveness with the sincerest of apologies, with all of my heart.

Enjoy the holidays =)
And to my loved ones, can't wait to get together sometime soon and gorge on the festive goodies.

Love,
Skin.

2008-09-30T09:38:00.004+08:00

Beat It x Fall Out Boy

Pre-enlistee - The day before Tekong.
Trimmed a bit of hair off.

Recruit - 2 weeks after Tekong.
Ayeeee, Botak!

And to think that I was worried about you looking skinnier and awkward with no hair when you went to NS.

Hoho, was I wrong.
A good, glowing tan, a little bit of additional weight on you and with just a little bit of hair on your head - and I've fallen stupid for you all over again by just looking at you for the first time, after two weeks.

And now, I ~~want~~ need to meet our new Abang Rain-Bo(tak).
I miss you and I need our retail therapy before exams starts =(

And finally,.....

BESOK RAYA!

2008-09-27T03:09:00.008+08:00

On Fire x Switchfoot

Because we wanted to experience the F1 nice race, and were deafened by it.
Because fun is free, but those Aldo bags sure as hell were nowhere near free.
Because "When the boyfriends are away, we are single" - Dila.
Because Marketing Principles lecture sucked our brains dry.
And simply because we wanted to =)

Next on our agenda; Themed-dressed-up-shopping!

p.s. "Baby, I'm booking out at 1700 hours on Sunday" were the exact words I needed to hear to end this already pretty perfect day =)

I'm elated, ecstatic, over the moon.